the bi-polar christmas

it's been awhile since i first arrived here and as days pass by i'm starting to get used to the ways of lives here, and yes it sux big time. people here wakes up early try to catch the train, work, eat lunch as fast as they could return to work goes home at six ang oh no mall after work cuz mall closes at 7.

and when you go shopping make sure you do your math well cuz they charge city tax for every single thing.

starbucks here is more expensive and less variety and the baritas are not that friendly.

im afraid of homeless people cuz, one they look like someone who can kill you with no mercy; second they smell really bad and third it seems that people here are all stoic.

it feels really bad when you're away to your family. yes i wanted it but now i want to run home and feel safe again.

there were nights when i cry so hard i almost puke. few times i fall asleep crying. and for the weird reason of missing home. cuz back then i wouldn't want to stay home i always want to go out and let time pass in *megamall. and now those are the places i miss the most.

im craving for kare kare, sinigang na bangus sa bayabas, fried tilapia, lucky me pancit canton, iced tea, jollibbe, kwek kwek, fruit shake, nilagang baka, sinabawang isda, my mom's spaghetti, tita chay's leche flan, bopis, dinuguan and the list goes on. i still need to wait for another month or so to satisfy my taste buds cravings.

the good thing is that i was able to spend time with lolo pods and lola pacing for the holidays. went to six flags and ate at papa john's.

i also got the chance to bond with nat again. ever since they lived in the states we never got the chance to bond and catch up.

i miss my family so much. but knowing they misses me too was never really bad at all. its better that way than knowing they never miss you at all. but i missed the holiday cheers, the food, the  gift givings, and yes even with web cam on, still nothing beats personal or physical contact with your love ones.

to be continue..